Hubris

Hubris has got in my way many times, just like many others. In terms of ego, who likes to apologize? Who likes to admit that they're wrong and take a hit to their egos? Not me. People all have an ego, and we like to protect it and buff it up by doing things that make us feel good about ourselves, just like donating to charity. Some do it because they actually want to help people, but some just do it to feel better about themselves.

But for a story about myself: Just like anyone with a little brother close in age (In my case 16 months apart) We had been arguing about who knows what. And it turned out he had been right, and it would have been more polite to have just said "Dude, I'm sorry" or something like that, but that never happened. While no real everlasting damage occurred between us, it is still something I should have said to finalize the disagreement and make him feel better

Fate

       I do not believe in fate, or complete free will for that matter, due to automatic brain umpulses, nerurons firing off. I don't believe in some entity watching over me, pushing me into a specific path or direction, or for that matter, something omnipotent that cares about me. As far as I know, no one sets a specific path for me, only me. I can adjust my life accordingly if something "good" or "bad" happens. Nor do I believe in the principal of karma. If I do something, it can change the course of my life and potentially others. But if I hurt someone or steal something, bad thing may or may not happen because of it. If something happened, it would be because of my actions and how they impacted the world.  I don't believe in luck or something like that. I believe the world just goes on, and things happen.
         Although, I do believe in the words of certain people as "gods" in society: Ram Daas, Timothy Leary, Jerry Garcia, and Jim Morrison, just to name a few. "Turn on, tune in, and drop out" as Timothy Leary famously said.

My advancements

    Throughout this year I have grown as a writer-at least in my opinion. My writing style can be very sloppy if I am not attempting good work. One example of creativity but possibly perceived as a lack of effort could be my story about bacon, pancake muffins "I want to make bacon-pancake muffins."Some may even say that this is brilliant, ground-breaking news, but some very unimaginative people would say that it is a stupid idea. Writing is purely objective. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.


       The worst writing I have done all year was when I didn't put much effort into my work, such as "I follow my bliss by mountain and road biking." Now, ordinarily this would be fine, but that was my entire response to the question "How do you follow your bliss?" There was no elaboration at all, just a mostly half-assed attempt at following the prompt. Out of my writing this year, this was the worst job I have done. I could further improve this by working to expand my thoughts of WHY I like those two sports, why they bring me joy. Look world, I didn't get the grade I wanted in my LA class for two reasons, at my best, I would say I'm a good writer, not phenomenal, but pretty good. So on our essays, I was lacking a few minor things here and there. But the other reason would be for some of our blog posts, I didn't go all in, I said it was "Good enough" And that's what killed me, that's why I didn't get the 'A' I wanted, instead, I got a B. Remember writers, being concise and being able to elaborate is key! Be witty in your writings. I may try setting timers to write for "x" amount of time, take a break, then go back in order to focus once more.

What inspires you to do anything you do? Well for me, it's going outside. Going on a hike, or going mountain or road biking. The state of Colorado is just so gorgeous that it is a wonderful place for a mind to brew new thoughts. I follow my bliss by doing things that not only inspire but keep me happy and fulfilled in life. Like I've said, bacon-pancake muffins would be an amazing idea! I just thought of it while on a mountain bike ride while hungry; Ideas can come from anywhere. While inspiration comes to many via psychedelic drug, meditation, or out of no where, as of now, my route of discovery comes via cycling and the scenery of everyday life.




The human mind is full of metaphorical colors and the rainbow of them represent something to everyone. For example, with this picture, Alex Grey painted a human with his eyes shut and colors coming out of his/her brain.These colors are the human "spirit" and consciousness. The baby on the left and right could possibly represent the creation of new ideas.